Monday, February 1, 2010

Problems never just disappear.

Being a human can be so frustrating.. sometimes your body won't do the things you want it to do... sometimes your mind won't remember/think the way you want it to.
and sometimes your heart won't feel the way you want it to. (pray comes in

on the flip side being a human can be so wonderful. We get to experience such wonderful emotions, experiences and such.

i've been training, and i've been mad at my body because I want to run farther, faster hard. I guess that's every runners dream. it's my legs either, its normally my lungs that start to throw a fit.
Running is also a good emotional exercise for me, it helps me clean my head and look at things with a fresh take. Lately, I've been having a really hard time breathing so i've been running less.. I know the doctor says its because of the weather changes and the extreme cold is causing the little tubes to be extra pissy.

i go to a bible study on monday nights,
it's called g42. i'm not sure why.. I should ask Ben
but we do a homeless outreach and cook dinner, have a bible study and then invite the homeless in.
There is a warming house in town, and we all work shifts ( between 10 pm and 7 am)
and try to connect with the homeless and hopefully bring them to God.
It's a pretty humbling/frustrating experience at time.
Ben is pretty amazing, I don't have his kind of tolerance.... he deals with the angry drunks, when I just walk away with my tail between my legs. I'm praying for tolerance and a general guided tour of what God wants me to do with my remaining time here.
God is teaching me something, what I'm not sure right now.. but everytime i'm about to give up he provides. I know i was here for a specific reason, I'm just not sure what i've accomplished in my time besides a degree and getting to know Lacan..

I was not kidding when I said this was going to be the best year....

I really need to do some research for tomorrow and my group of kids.
i'll be posting there art work from my theraputic art group!!! which I finally have a partner! I'm so excited.

more later.

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